smore...fun!

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We love to be outside.

Especially the kids. 

Logan Loves to make fires.

Louie loves to walk around and explore.

Lauryn loves to do a million cartwheels.

Linkie loves to be just be Linkie.

Londyn is just Londyn.

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Here is Londyn waiting for everyone to get outside. 

She's such a tiny thing. 

 Not sure why Londyn is crying. 

But she's really good and crying to get what she wants.

And once she gets it she smiles.

I always feel like she works me.

She really is a funny thing for being so little.

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no words....

 

Every kid needs a walking stick.... when they are walking.

 Here is our survival man making our fire!

 How did I birth Uncle Aaron?

 Look who loves to walk all over now?

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Introducing.....

mini

 Dr. Craig Robert Colby 

 Look who has 4 teeth :)

 He loves eating his smores this way :)

 Love the simply things in life.

Love just hanging with my family.

Love watching them grow and be independent.

Love ArKansAs :)

 

linkie and almost ot kindergarten.

Linkie and Londyn have so much fun together while Logan and Lauryn are at school. They Love having the whole house to themselves. They love asking for... ice cream cones and getting it. They love being able to be the KING of the ipad or the wii while the big kids are gone. They love  to be on the scooter all day and not have to take turns. The other day I felt a little sad that Linkie is going to go to Kindergarten. Felt sad for me. Felt sad for Londyn. I'll miss him wearing his underwear... all day long. I'll miss him asking for a PB and Jelly... 8x a day. I'll miss watching him dance to the Michael Jackson game. Miss having him watch me clean but talk my ear off about everything that makes him laugh. I'll miss him quoting the most random funniest lines in movies. I'll miss taking him to Target on payday and letting him pick any little toy out. He loves Target...

Tuesday is the last day of school. But also the last day for linkie just being linkie... Im going to take pictures of him and Londyn that day. But for now here are some pictures that I took the other day. 


Last night Link kept asking me when he goes to kindergarten will he be gone all day. I said Yes... and then he started crying. He said that it's like going on a mission. I started laughing so hard. He is so funny. He keeps telling me he doesn't want to go on a mission cuz he doesn't want to be stuck in a computer like his Uncle Luke. He is so funny!!!!

1st post in finding and adopting

I don't know where to begin or how to even document all of this but I guess I'll just start...


Some how I just always felt that I would adopt. Never knew how the cards would play out but always felt I would adopt. 

In AriZona click here...remember? both Michael and I both had a strong feeling when we were in the temple one day that we would adopt.

(I remember we were doing sealings with Cory and Jodi Brown and the sealer talked about families getting sealed and that it was some of the most special sealings that he has ever done... I had a feeling that we were going to experience that. That we would have our child get sealed to our family one day.) 

And that was right before we left to NY for residency. So somehow I just thought that when we moved to NY things were going to pan out and we would some how adopt a child. When we got to New YoRk we both had the feeling that we would... but not then. Somehow in the future we were going to but not then... 

Our  1st year of residency I  then became pregnant with Londyn Joy.... and a year and a half later got pregnant with Louiston Russell.... and then Residency was over and we found ourselves moving to ArKansAs... with 5 kids! How did Michael and I end up with 5 kids so fast? I feel like we just got married. :)

So off we go to Arkansas- I wondered about if we were still "meant" to adopt. Especially having 5. Would the cards change for  us. Well... months passed and I kept getting the gnawing feeling that we needed to start getting on the ball with all of this. Infact it feels like a panic feeling an unsettled feeling a hurry up and get this done already feeling... a feeling like u  need to hurry it up and find her.  But I kept saying to myself... but I haven't lost my weight yet :) but I have 5 kids? What if people think Im crazy :) 

So...
One day a friend from church was going to go thru the temple. The temple being 3 hrs away Kansas City)... and trying to find a sitter... I wasn't sure if I felt up to the task... However while I was thinking about if I should go a feeling came over me that if I go I would be able to receive an answer to whatever question I may have. (light bulb) 
(* I was going to ask if we need to further the process of adoption or if we are done having kids.)

 When we went to the temple I felt so amazed on how special this temple felt to me. When it was getting built and I was in NY I felt a certain special feeling for this temple and to see in person confirmed that this was a special temple. So the session went great. I prayed thru out the session before and during about if we should adopt and I didn't get any answer. It was time for us to go...
I didn't understand why I did not get an answer. Especially since I had that feeling the day before that I would get an answer... 

Well on our way out I had a feeling to look inside the Sealing room. This is where families and couples are sealed together forever.  When I looked in the room a strong and overwhelming feeling came over me that we were going to be sealed to our child in this temple... and in this room. That it was going to really happen. No more thinking that in the ... future but now is the time to start the process. 

So now here we are...
I have our 1st home study this Tuesday at 10:00. Im excited. Im nervous. Im scared.

The whole family is on board. The kids have been praying to adopt a girl for months now. I haven't asked them to pray about this. And I haven't asked them to pray for a girl... I did however ask them if they wanted to have another baby from my tummy. All of the kids have said not from my tummy but they want us to adopt.

I feel like this is what is right for my family. I feel anxious to get on with the process...

Im scared cuz I don't know yet what trials will come about. 
I don't know if this baby will love us and feel grateful for her new life or hate us or hate me cuz Im not her birth mom. 

Im scared that we will fall in love with a baby. Feel like she is ours... and then have to give her back. Will we be strong enough? Will we understand that its for the best?

I have so many questions with out any answers...

I have been studying my patriarchal blessing and have realized that it also has talked about adoption in it. Funny how for so many years I've read it  thinking it pertained to something else and now that I need the guidance it some how clarifies on what I need to do. Grateful for having a patriarchal blessing and for the guidance it has always given me in my life.

So...
I do want our adoptive baby to know that I have always thought of her. I thought of her before Logan was born.(thats another post) Just never knew when it was all going to happen...  

So here is my 1st post on our process of finding and adopting our baby.

ps. i really wish I could make this blog private but my parents and grandparents always seem to have problems trying to long on to this blog when I do go private.

Grandpa came to town and ... the storm before the storm.

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Gpa Russell came out last weekend. He said all he wanted for his birthday was to see us. We felt kind special....

It seemed like one weekend was one day. We went out to dinner- had a dance party- went shopping... just spent good time together. 

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Right before he had to leave the storm started hitting us.

The STORM...

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The kids in the tub.

That's as safe as it gets for us. 

 I had to wake Louie from his sleep.

 He was not a happy camper.

 When we buy or build...

I am going to make sure we have a safe room/ tornado shelter 

to keep my little treasures safe:)

 After the most dangerous part of the storm blew over...

Grandpa Peck had to leave and catch his flight.

This is when to storm hit...

tears... tears.... tears.

 We sure love gpa peck.

love that he loves us so much.

love that he still finds the things that matter to kids still important. love that he took time off to come visit.

love that he bought each one of us something special.